Its been 4 days since we were told the devastating news that the cancer had spread from mums lung to the lining of her brain, she started steroids the same day followed by a vit B injection and folic acid, Friday & Saturday there was not much improvement but yesterday my mum was feeling a little better, she starts chemo today, I think the shock has subsided for me and the reality of what we are facing has hit me harder than I could have ever imagined.
I have had so many lovely messages which have not only given me comfort but hope and I am holding onto that so hard, I am praying mum responds to treatment and I hope more than anything her symptoms go and allow her to be our mum, our lovely mum, nanny, wife and friend that she's so amazing at..
I feel angry at the world, at everyone that has a mum who isn't ill (how selfish is that of me to even think it) I feel like cancer has come into our lives and is taking the one person we love more than anything, its broken our hearts and has caused so much unbearable pain, it's left the unknown, not knowing whats ahead and I feel like we are now living this nightmare trudging through treacle with every step.