Back in hospital escorted by an amazing city centre GP who insisted on getting me in ,only went to get results of 24hr tape which was showing heart rate regularly flips from 45-250bpm also starting to feel rubbish a oxygen levels low 75% on sats monitor when doing daily living stuff .So back to cardiology review can only offer pills so trying some new pills ,staying for a scan to rule out P.E then home again.I am so impressed with the service my local community doctors and lung care nurses and hospital cardiology oncology have provided for me .I know they cannot fix me but they are doing their best to keep me going as long as they can .So I am feeling blessed and lucky ,cancer is the shite bit not anything else.We are all unlucky to have it .
My daughter finishes her nurse training next year I so want to be there for her graduation she will be a fab nurse .I might not make it but I am going to try .I think I can do it so at least I have Goal to aim for so that is positive ,I may have to accept a life of pills and steroids now just to get there .Doing it for my family and that is a very worthwhile course not to say I don't feel sad and it seems unfair ,but in the end it is what it is ,so got try and find a little light to carry me onwards.
Hopefully this is not a depressing post just sharing my story ,still high on steroids although doses reducing slowly.Hence early hour post .