Cirrhosis and very scared - please help!

[puddy68]

Hi. I'm so glad I stumbled on this site and I'm hoping that someone could be kind enough to reach out to me? I'm so very, very scared, and it's all my own fault. I have suffered from an anxiety disorder for 15 - 20 years and used wine to cope....and lots of it. I was diagnosed with compensated cirrhosis in May 2022, Class A Pugh score. I saw my specialist again last week [after 2 years - anxiety disorder stopped me from follow up visits before last week. I'm so STUPID]. Was told to stop drinking in May 2022, but stupidly kept drinking, though not at the same rate. Now have Class B Pugh score, and have entered into the decompensated state of cirrhosis now and am absolutely terrified. Not had a drink for 2 weeks, joined gym today, and am researching the best diet for cirrhosis. I'm so scared. I have portal hypertension and an enlarged spleen. T Bil of 61, yet no signs of jaundice. ALP is 158, GGT is 183. No signs of edema. Low platelet count. My specialist confused me - told me I had 5 years to live, but at the same appointment also said that if I stopped drinking, exercised, all the good stuff that I had a good chance of stopping further damage and could even revert to compensated again. I'm very confused, anxiety is rampant and I'm petrified. I don't want to die and leave my beautiful husband and son because of my stupidity. Could someone please help? Thank you so much.

[AyrshireK]

Hi Puddy, this forum is much less active than the 'other one' which you've already had support on. The people who are likely to answer you here are the same ones from the other site.

Katie