being more disabled by loss?

[RogerCMerriman]

was much more frequent on here years ago, but around 11 years ago didn’t quite make it to work.

Had a few days in hospital following a skull fracture and some brain bleeds, my work luckily where more aware than I was and I got phased return to work, I did try full time for a while but it crushed me, so I’ve reduced down to two days a week over the years.

In short I’ve slowly rebuilt my and our life while I’m not the man I was, life was rebuilt.

But late last year my wife unexpectedly died, she was chronically ill which would of shorten her life but we where expecting and medical advice had been years than months.

So it’s been a brutal shock, and further to the grief has been the reality of how well I cope with looking after myself, I did suspect that Sara being the lovely home maker that she was enabled me to look and be far more able that I truly was.

photo above is point above a trip to Australia which is almost certainly beyond my capacity now.

but it’s been and is a bit of shock to the system!