Rip Frenchay (and other life frustrations)

[Bexxyg1987]

its going to feel weird in october going to the usual monthly support groups in different place that isnt in the grounds of Frenchay Hospital, which makes me feel naturally uneasy, my thoughts feel all over the place to the point where I cant type or think correctly, everything is just like i wading thru fog, i dont know if its a combonation of things or if its one specific thing all i know is i spend every waking moment still mentally exhausted from the day before, my body constatly aches but my mind wants to do 10 million things at once and i have to scold myself which i dont like doing but if i dont i then call myself lazy and other mean things so it feels like i cant win, technology is great but when it all wants to update at the same time and then changes loads of settings that you spent ages configuring and the updates just wipe it all out it makes me want to throw my flip 5 in the sea and trash my xbox one and asus laptop i spend so much time internally screaming and swearing at microsoft and samsung for the constant conflicting and its hard for me to ask people for help because ive always been the type of person who provides help and support and never asks for help and support *deep heavy sigh*

[Leaf100]

Hi BexWhen your mind gets all that stuff all at once and then you can't think - it actually is a thing and it's called 'flooding'.

You might find pacing helpful - take more rest breaks. Rest does not mean read, watch TV, or talk on the phone - it means giving the brain box a rest. Sit still do nothing. Fresh air is good. Being in a dark quiet room for a bit might do it. Weighted blanket may or may not help.

And our brains don't deal with changes well.- lots more input - and it may be all new - meaning new pathways being built - heavy lifting.

The tech stuff - ya that can be frustrating.

Asking for help can be hard. Maybe someone at Headway has some ideas where you could get help with the tech.

Yup, vent here, it's good.

You're normal for here. 😉

Keep on hanging in.

Leaf x

[Bexxyg1987 in reply to Leaf100]

thanks leaf you response is reassuring, i thought no one was going to reply which was getting me quite down, im currently trying to listen to the rain outside but my internal jukebox has decided to start playing drip drip drop little april showers from bambi

[Leaf100 in reply to Bexxyg1987]

Listening to whatever is there is a good thing, it's a form of meditation. Just watch where your mind goes and let it, if you remember 'rain drops' then let them come back onto your mind, but don't go down on yourself for the mind wandering off. Instead, be friends with it. It's working hard and it's working on healing itself, so it needs a kindly friend who understands.

Ya I know that may sound a bit strange - but if you had a friend who always criticizes you and wants you to do everything different, it's unpleasant. I have found, at least, if I have some room and compassion it's more likely to co operate when the chips are down.