Hello everyone this Wednesday

[Julesstillhere]

Just a Hi to anyone around (and Cat if your there).

Just plodding around saying hi and hope your all having ok days

Jules

x

[cat3]

Hi Missus ! I've been in a manic phase for weeks now. I think it's compensation for the earlier days of Covid when I was a bit paralysed from the weirdness of it all.

It's been satisfying showering, resting & eating after a full day (well afternoon - don't do mornings) of productive work, if only in improving my own space ......and at my own manageable pace. I do love the light nights.

Oh and after you mentioned your hedgehogs (and I was envious having seen none for decades) my neighbour reported seeing one on my lawn two nights ago ! I'm keeping watch....

How've you been since we last talked ; coping with the heat ok ?

🌼😐 xx

[Julesstillhere in reply to cat3]

Hello there Cat, Jules here,Envious of your hedgehog appearance - ares are still AWOL.

Our 2nd colony of honey bees arrive today so that will be interesting (if ren lets me get involved).

I love the heat Cat, probably comes from my childhood and 'gypsy' mum. Living in Trinidad when I was 4. Before mum got sick out of coincidence I asked mum to write out a map of my life where i had been (to fill in the gaps in my head) it did help. Odd that was one of the last things we did together before she next visited and was sick. Its lovely having her words to read though - the last time mum was really mum. It gets on rens nerves that i am always barefoot - inheritance from mum too. The only downside is on a couple of occasions i have stood on coal from the fire and not realised until its been imbedded quite deep.

I spend my productive day with things around me too, sometimes it helps doesnt it.

Getting really upset recently with people moaning about level of pay during and after covid and how the young have had such a hard time. What about people my age who lost their job through covid and havent got a chance of ever being employed again? It makes me so sad.

Makes me feel discarded. I know they used the opportunity in getting rid of me because I have problems. 25-30 years i think in that job.

Anyway, we dont know whats around the corner do we. There is bad yes, but there is also good.

I have a new gargoyle in my room now - just a miniature, but quite beautiful - do you still have yours in the garden?

Its a sunny day here again in Whitley Bay, hope your getting lots sun to.

Jules

xxxx

[cat3 in reply to Julesstillhere]

Mmm... Haven't seen the Hedgehog since ! But I live in hope.. I know very little about bees but I love to see them buzzing around my garden. They seemed to be really sparse last year but are back in great numbers thank goodness. We occasionally have a swarm which rests in a particular hawthorn tree before leaving in a 'cloud' within one day.

I always loved the hot weather 'til after my brain injury when I developed a constant overheating issue. It's an endocrine disturbance apparently and I since find the hot weather pretty difficult to cope with. I alternate between jobs and 10 minute intervals in front of my large pedestal fan !

The life map is really touching ; what a labour of love that will have been for your mum. And the bare-foot inheritance -- I love that. I always had a mental impression of Val as a free spirit ; much younger than her years and surrounded by her beloved animal family (and bare-footed apparently !) Lovely, lovely lady.

Ha ha ....I can't believe you remembered my gargoyles ! Yes, they still sit beneath the Camellia bush. We should swap photos of them !

I'm sorry you felt discarded by your employer Jules. The Bi lifestyle isn't what most of us signed up for but we can still be creative in own ways.

I did voluntary English teaching to foreign students for a year or so and it was really satisfying, but I now find my days are filled with work around the home & garden together with practical jobs at my daughters house (pointing brickwork on a garden outbuilding tomorrow) ...just glad the forecast is slightly cooler....

Good luck with the bees (hope Ren let's you get involved) I'd be interested to hear more about the technicalities.

Off to bed now (1.30am (still an owl)... Cat xx

[Julesstillhere in reply to cat3]

Hi CatThats one thing nobody told me about the effects of TBi is that it would be years and years until I actually got to grips with what has changed - and admittance that this isnt going to get any better now.

Its sad knowing this, but it does help give me a guiding light now with what I am supposed to do now.

I know what you mean about days being to busy/full of things sometimes to interact as much as you used to.

As sad and horrid as Covid is, staying at home didnt cause me any problems, but it is grinding ren down on occasions I think. He has a lot of friends.

I AM going to take some pics of my gargoyles and send them - but I cant figure how to do that on the form, or I forgot how, but I can send them to your email.I think I have about 5 now and 3 full size skeletons.

Much love Cat

Jules

x

[cat3 in reply to Julesstillhere]

Like you Jules I haven't had a problem with lockdown. I think the most upsetting moment for me was in the early days of Covid ; Spring 2020. I stood on the motorway bridge between woodland and the Mersey valley.

At rush hour the traffic is normally deafening but the lanes were empty and silent and the birdsong was loud and clear and I could hear the river. It was such a sad wake up call knowing it couldn't last.

I'm sure it's been a testing time for many, like Ren, who're used to interacting regularly with others. But I lost my need for socializing after the Bi so distancing hasn't affected me much. I've kept up with loved ones by phone and with garden visits.

I found the first 2-3 years challenging after my brain injury, mostly with memory & mobility issues and emotional lability. Let's face it missus, after a lifetime as a dynamic & outgoing person, the sudden swap to a narrower existence is a massive shock for any of us, whatever the cause.

Accepting our limitations isn't defeatism though ; like you say Jules, there are just a different set of guidelines...

Sending much love. Cat xx

PS If you want to forward photos by email I'll message the address to you. My new phone went walkabout on Weds so if/when I locate it I'll take some and send them to you...x

[HungryHufflepuff]

Hi to you 🌙

[Julesstillhere in reply to HungryHufflepuff]

love the name where does it come from?jules

[HungryHufflepuff in reply to Julesstillhere]

It’s from Harry Potter, but also I huff and puff because I have dodgy lungs. 😳 I can’t remember why I put the “hungry” in front, probably because that’s what I was thinking at the time ☺️

[Julesstillhere in reply to HungryHufflepuff]

Hi HuffleIts a cool user name! I didnt watch Harry Potter so a little out of it there,

Have a peaceful evening

Jules

x

[HungryHufflepuff in reply to Julesstillhere]

Thank you. Wishing you a peaceful evening too ✨

[Painting-girl]

Hello Jules, hope you are ok too

[Julesstillhere in reply to Painting-girl]

cheers x