After nearly very long months since I sustained my tbi I have been dumped from one system to the next to try and get help and general ignored by the medical profession. I can cope with my quirky behavior post tbi, my dodgy speech etc, but what I cannot cope with is that the fact that I have many seizures everyday and I am also very, very tired. The seizures are as a result of the accident. I was told in hospital that they were Myoclonic. I started on meds (which are horrible) and they improved but still very significant everyday. I am still very uncontrolled. I also cannot cope with noise so I tend to have a nice controlled environment at home, but when I do go out, things get much worse. Also cannot cope with fluorescent/flickering lights, this amongst all the other fun stuff that came along after I landed on my head.
None of this seems to get any better and I am so tired fighting any longer so I have retreated in my nice safe controlled environment at home. I really want all this to stop though. I want to get better and go back to work. Work however are about to ceremoniously dump me (another story).
To cut a long story short (sorry I am getting there) I've been round and round in circles trying to get some care. We very much got the impression, because I am standing the medical profession do not want to know. I have even had one neurologist almost shout at me. We complained about one doctor in hospital as they refused to treat my leaking lumbar puncture. We have found if you complain about one doctor, you may as well complain about them all.
No one has sorted out my seizures However, the positives are is that my GP has been brilliant and so have marvelous Headway. I have also met other brilliant doctors and nurses, but when you get to the decision makers in the hospital the good care stops.
However, we have a break through. I was finally referred to neuro psychologist who without seeing me, referred me to a rehab center for assessment, which happened last week.
This morning I got a letter to say they want me to go in as an inpatient, but I am on a waiting list and now I am very nervous because I do not want to be an inpatient, but desperately want the help to get better. I just do not want to leave home as I find going to hospitals drain all my remaining energy from me.The fight and my dodgy brain has caused me to retreat in my OCD ish controlled world. I find it very hard not knowing what is going to happen. I also have lost faith in the medical profession.
Apologies for the length of my explanation just wanted to find out if you do not mind, your experiences of rehab. Should I go for this or go for a community based option instead? How long will I be in there for? Will I be allowed to sleep in the day? They are promising to sort my meds out so hopefully get rid of these horrible seizures. It a big carrot for me.
All thoughts, advice and information would be very much appreciated.
Thank you very much.
Hope you are all ok today?