i feel absolutely in the dark with my Dr after reading how incredibly informed most of you are. i go Monday for round 3 of chemo. I do know i have stage 4 large cell. thats the extent of it though. i have a list of questions for her thanks to you all. If i may, I need to vent. Im scared! im still going though the "im too young" i just turned 44. No symptoms, no pain, feel normal still. i worry that if this chemo doesnt work, well thats it! I have no idea about gene mutations. Although the Dr said if this didnt work she would check into Duke for trials. What??? does that mean nothing else will be tried? I dont feel she is going the distance for me. The mental part is taking its toll on me. i will share my story eventually. I just need some uplift.