OTD tomo but had a negative test today

[Rose_1983]

I have tried to be realistic but feel so let down.. did a digital test today and it was negative.. after 3/4 years of infertility. I have an ectopic that ruptured I nearly died, followed by 3 MC and then another ectopic. I ended up having to go down the ivf route and Had a 5AA blastocyst fresh round and it failed last year.. and now failed FET 5AA blastocyst.. just feel what else can I deal with. My sis has had two, best friend who is my SIL having another and best mate has just had a baby... I can’t understand how I am just not getting success. 😢

[Libsie3103]

I'm so sorry to hear this - my 3rd transfer failed last week and it's hit me really hard as well. This journey is so unfair and impossible to make sense of. Give yourself some time and try and do some of the things you enjoy doing if you can. Take care Hun xx

[Rose_1983 in reply to Libsie3103]

Thankyou so much.. ❤️❤️ is it just bad luck or something else. Just so gutted xx

[Hidden in reply to Libsie3103]

I’m so sorry to here this you will start to feel better it’s will just take time Iv had 7 transfers from the 3rd they where all double Iv had one successful and 3 failed after my successful Iv had ever test under the sun and can’t honestly say I really do think it is luck! And getting the protacol right keep your head up you will start to feel better xxx

[Rose_1983 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks so much.... I just feel so lost and upset xxxx

[Hidden in reply to Rose_1983]

I know that feeling to well it’s so unfair but in time your get stronger I alway find having a plan always helps me x

[Rose_1983 in reply to Hidden]

Honestly I just feel what else can go wrong xx

[Hidden in reply to Rose_1983]

Iv been there actually I’m still there it’s like a big battle one step forward ten back I’m pretty similar to you Iv had 3 ectopics and one Heterotopic that’s where it was twins one in my womb and one in my tube that nearly killed me and was the ultimate slap in the face I’m happy to chat anytime xxx

[Rose_1983 in reply to Hidden]

Awww Thankyou so much ... it’s so shit... it’s seeing everyone get their happiness and I am still at the starting line. How are you coping x

[Jols]

So sorry about this, it does seem to be a case of trying until one makes it unfortunately.

You are not alone in this xx

[Rose_1983 in reply to Jols]

Thankyou so much.. I am just gutted xx

[Hidden in reply to Rose_1983]

I’m ok Iv done this 7 times I’m just about to start my 8th round and I won’t lie having my son makes it easier and harder I didn’t get my son till my 4th round and I had some very dark days and felt angry and completely left behind in life I’m so lucky to have my little boy but in a way it’s harder now because I want a sibling for him and feeling like I let him down everytime it fails breaks my heart but I will keep trying I won’t give up cos this time it’s for him not me xx

[Rose_1983 in reply to Hidden]

Awww I am so sorry... Iam feeling so under pressure with everything.. just feel so sad. Awww you seem so strong to persevere through all the cycles xxxx

[Hidden in reply to Rose_1983]

Just try to block out other people and don’t compare your self to other you probably put enough pressure on yourself! I don’t ever want to regret not trying and I will kept trying till I can’t! It’s really hard but I would be more angry at myself for giving up you just have to kept telling your self it’s “when” you have a baby and not “if” xxx

[Rose_1983 in reply to Hidden]

Totally., I love the determination... . It’s so hard plus the money too xxxxxxxxxxx keep going... I just don’t get how my blastocyst not work.. questioning it all the time xxxx

[Hidden in reply to Rose_1983]

All mine are self funded and we have spend ALOT all I can say is it’s only money no I’m not a millionaire but I can say I never look at my son and think of the money and I would pay it all again ten times over.As for the egg thing it’s the million dollars question I had two top quality blastocyst put in with my son only one took since then I transferred 5 blastocyst none have took I honestly think it is just luck! Try not to get caught up in the Whys cos honestly your never know I always try to move forward get a plan together and focus on the positives are you going to try again?

[Rose_1983 in reply to Hidden]

I just feel defeated... totally agree. You sound like you have been through a lot xxx