can anyone tell me why I cannot confront somebody who hurts me?.
I spent an awful weekend being rushed to hospital at first they thought I had a stroke, because my speech was blurred, my blood pressure was so dangerous and low it seems to me at the time I was going to die.I didn’t otherwise I wouldn’t be writing this.
do you know the doctors,paramedics don’t understand how I am walking,I should be in a wheelchair permanently.but I won’t. I want to have as much independence as I can before the ultimate happens..I am suffering. I have suffered so much abuse in my life now. I can’t confront. people who hurt me. Yesterday Shelly started to bark, David who helps people fix things where I live callled to see how I was. I got to the door with my walker. He didn’t even ask me how I was instead this is what I got. He said your door is open,I didn’t know as my son had recently left. why is your dogs gate broken, I tried to fix it, so he went and he fixed it thank you, David Then he started if you carry on like this you’re gonna end up in a home. I said, I didn’t collapse deliberately I fainted.They called the ambulance. I didn’t.you shouldn’t be driving but I can drive you shouldn’t you shouldn’t do this you shouldn’t do that. You shouldn’t do the other. I feel so demoralised, so put down.I was like that when I was married. Unable to answer back.,I feel so totally down.it’s bad enough thinking I will be in a wheelchair for the rest of my life without being told you you may go into a home or be put in a home.his finals insult was it costs £400 to call an ambulance on and on and I just stood their taking all this abuse. WHY WHY
NOW My doors locked, my garage is locked.i’m afraid to go out.
am I overreacting?Sorry, I had to tell somebody I’m just so tired and angry with myself, is this normal. Liz
