Hi. Abuse is a messed up thing. The kind i had was "gaslamping" from a neurotic selfish narcissistic person and it lead to a lot of things in me. Like low self esteem, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and something called BDD and Dysphoria. I have spent my whole life trying to sort it all out and make sense of it. But this form of mental abuse is so low key in how it slowly systematically breaks you down. Building yourself up again is so hard but not impossible. I have done this almost entirely alone, fear of being judged or even humiliation for having to explain this to anyone. Bht finally i am typing it and putting it out there and saying, I wont let that abuse control me or define me anymore!