I wake
I wake but do not move
the day begins
I do not listen for the song birds
I do not lie in wistful wonder at dawn’s soft hues
No, I wake
But I do not move
Uncertainty
How bad is today going to be?
Will I stumble?
Will I fall?
I am awake
but do not move
I hear the sounds of my world waking
The song birds sing their “good mornings” to each other
A car offers a brief electronic chirp as my neighbor leaves for work
There is a rustling sound followed with “thump” “thump” “thump” and the soulful face of my “man’s best friend” peers at me from the floor beside my bed
Uncertainty
How bad will this day be?
Will I fall?
Will I get more than pride hurt?
I am awake
and I must move
I sit
I reach for the pills that trick my body
as I try to be me
Should I start this day with two?
Or three?
Is it time?
I am awake
Uncertainty collides with Faith
I stand
I step
I breathe
I listen
I move