Those that know me know that I have not been diagnosed with PD. I was diagnosed with REM Sleep Behavior Disorder 3 years ago and at that time I had some PD symptoms also, though not enough to be diagnosed.
Over the last 3 years I have worked out what my high school educated brain thinks are good protocols and I am much better than I was 3 years ago.
Almost every day I have wrestled with the question of whether today was the day to share my insights and protocols. Even though things have been going great for me, I have been afraid that as soon as I give others advice the tide will turn for me and I will find I was deluding myself and derailing others.
Oddly, now seems like the right time to share, as last night I had a long violent dream that woke my wife up as I was trying to get this overweight pale dark haired man away from me in a small doorway. I was calling him a rat, but he was not a rat, I just called him that.
I feel better sharing coming off of a failure than coming off of sustained success. I don't want people to believe in me. Please do your own research but maybe take a look at what I am doing: rbd-pd-protocols.blogspot.c...
So why did I have an RBD relapse last night?
Possibilities:
1: None of my protocols make any difference. This seems unlikely as I am better than I was 3 years ago.
2: In the last week I felt so good I was skipping my morning 50 minutes of 40 HZ isochronic tones. Maybe these tones are important? I have not missed listening to them before bed.
3: For about 8 weeks, stopping about 10 days ago, I was having pressure cooked black beans with a little potato almost every day. Pressure cooking significantly reduces lectins, but I don't think it totally eliminates lectins. Maybe, like a person with a peanut allergy, no amount of lectins is a safe amount of lectins for me?
4: Or maybe the pressure cooked black beans and potatoes were helping, and my body misses them since I stopped about 10 days ago? Maybe, but I think all of my improvements started well before I started making those pressure cooked beans and potatoes.
5: Maybe the dream was triggered because I accidentally listened to some of protest singer David Rovics very dark music right before bed. It did occur to me at the time that this was some dark music.
6: Maybe I slipped because I have not had eggs in about 10 days? They were a staple.
7: Maybe I slipped because I did not have my insanely large serving of Breyers Neapolitan ice cream made with real sugar? (I remedied that today!)
8: Maybe I am just like a damaged old computer now. I am going to glitch sometimes, but that does not mean I am deteriorating.
Evidence I been deluding myself that things are better than they are:
1: I have still been averaging 2 or 3 very mild RBD episodes a month over the last 6 month (but none in January).
2: And a few more serious RBD episodes:
A: Dec 23rd Kicked the wall.
B: Apr 10th Got attacked by a dog and had to kick it.
C: Mar 3rd Dangerous stray dog was in the garage and came towards me as I went down the outside stairs to investigate.
D: Mar 5th Somebody was stealing my computer equipment outside in some strange situation.
E: Mar 16th Some monster type was trying to force himself in at my previous house and I yelled at him to stop.
F: Mar 29th I was about to parachute off of a huge balcony without a railing and as I got close to the edge I slipped and fell on my backside with my feet hanging off the edge so I leaned back and put my hand off the edge of the futon and woke up. I did not fall or anything.
G: Apr 11th I had a dream where I kicked something out of somebody’s hand, but I am not sure if I woke up and I did not make contact with anything. I probably moved but I am not sure.
H: Apr 23rd: I was playing football and the opposing runner fumbled so I stretched out and used my hand to stop the ball from going out of bounds. I lightly touched the wall in stopping the ball.
3: I had no noteworthy RBD episodes since Apr 23rd until last night. That is about 7 weeks of smooth sailing.
4: Today when I held a heavy fork loosely in my left hand the fork trembled.
5: I used to have left side back, shoulder, and upper left arm pain that improved to just upper left arm pain, but now the shoulder is a little more sore again and I can feel some slight weirdness in the left side of my back.
Evidence I have NOT been deluding myself that things are better than they are:
1: I have not fallen out of bed or thrown anything in my sleep for over 2 years. This improvement may just be due to my retiring and reducing stress.
2: A lot of my PD like symptoms have been gone for a long, long time:
A: Orthostatic Hypotension is gone.
B: Dizziness is gone.
C: Seborrheic dermatitis is gone. So is my dandruff.
D: I am nimble on my feet.
E: I am very active politically and my brain seems sharper than ever.
F: My involuntary movements, twitches and jerks and such, are almost non-existent now.
G: My urinary urgency is much much better. Sometimes I have to pee but am busy and can wait over an hour.
3: I do projects every day. Sometimes I just get up and go do something just to be doing something. This has never been my personality.
My Plan:
1: Lay off the pressure cooked beans and potatoes!
2: Listen to more 40 HZ isochronic tones.
3: As QAnon would say: Trust the Plan.