Hi all. Sorry not been on for a while - resorted to my ' boom ' ( been busy applying for jobs I will struggle to do but will ease the scarey financial situation tinnitus has brought me to / avoid / ignore ) to cope with increasingly difficult tinnitus and head pains . The relaxation and actually having a nice ish home for the first time in my life don't make any differencerrors. Even gardening this morning has ' hurt ' . Wondering how people management when others tell them to be positive, even happy to have tinnitus. Not being able to go to Forest after 41 years is still upsetting me and friends are running out of things they are willing / able to that don't include noise - a good friend has chosen to do something on her birthday today which I can't go to and though whilst I do get it , it seems my life is going to get smaller and smaller and less and less sociable. But I am told be Happy it's only a noise !