I haven't posted for ages. I've spent mostvof the time hoovering between and and utter despair. Hubby was admitted to hospital with internal bleeding from a vein he had had banded. Was a 50/50 chance of survival. We were warned if he survived he might not be the same person he was and that if he arrested they would not do cpr or put him on life support. This was utter devastation for me and my family. He recovered and the only side effect we noticed was slightly shorter fuse! I can live with that. His abdomen started to swell and he complained of feeling bloated and uncomfortable. Hospital admitted him to drain as it's as this was what they had diagnosed but there wasn't any. It turns out it's water retention for which he has now been prescribed some medication. Eases it a little but stomach still distended. Consultants appointment early January - liver failure with possible heart failure. No magic wand to say what time scale, nothing we can do to keep things at this stage.
Advance cirrhosis with decompensation means what in layman's terms???
I feel that I am on a ticking time bomb and can't relax cos I don't know when. I can't relax, don't want to leave him, can't sleep. I hate this disease!!!!