Results at last...

Hi ladies, finally I got my results. Clean margins, no lymph involvement so three weeks radiotherapy is the next thing. I just wanted to thank all of the ladies on here for guiding me and helping me retain my sanity. You are all wonderful and without your kindness and generosity I think I would have gone loopy - although by the sound of it the tamoxifen might do that anyway!! Here's hoping we all have a healthy 2017. Much love, Jackie x

[Gracie66]

Great news xx tamoxifen is not too bad. I think I was loopy before so I can't blame it

[Berylynn in reply to Gracie66]

Tamoxifen was ok for me, better than ok, it suited me...must have had a bad hormone inbalance before at 38. Moving on now 63 with diabetic flushes...if too high sugar. A sugary drink does it...so the general healthly eating advise goes.

[Lainey66]

That is just excellent news. Get the radio over and done with and you will soon be flying. I am very happy for you. A wonderful start to 2017. Massive congratulatory hugs flying to you right now. Xxx

[Hidden in reply to Lainey66]

Hi lainey, my head hasn't processed every thing yet. I was really weepy this morning - relief I think! Everything so quick. Told it was cancer 7th December, lump out on 22nd. I find myself thinking "is this me?". I think I'm slightly traumatised, we all were at some point I'm sure. Thank you lainey, you lit a candle for me and I found that very comforting. You kept me steady in scary times and I so appreciated that. I hope we all stay healthy and happy this year xxx

[Rebec in reply to Hidden]

Good luck with the radiotherapy. To think that physicists are needed with calculating the details necessary for this procedure. You'll have a little tattoo to mark, I think, the point from which the treatment starts.

Good luck again!

[Lainey66 in reply to Hidden]

Yes It is probably relief. I also found that when my situation improved, where I thought I would be cartwheeling out of the hospital, I found that I felt quite low. Like that, I think it was my mind suddenly realising what had just happened to me. All the ideas for a rowdy celebratory 50th birthday disappeared. My husband and I instead escaped to Donegal, had a 4 day spa break, drove to remote and stunningly beautiful parts of the country, walked up a small mountain and just appreciated all the beauty. (So not me I have to add here). I have altered my lifestyle dramatically, I love my hobbies and I think that I have finally, at the age of 50, finally, found me. I still like to laugh and have fun but more sedentary than previously and I love it. A spa break booked for a couple of weeks time and a different part of the country to explore. Live your life and enjoy doing so. As my husband says, and as cancer has taught me, "Life is to be enjoyed, not endured!" xxx

[Hidden in reply to Lainey66]

I think you are right lainey. I'm not doing cartwheels because I'm dazed. Sitting in the bedroom crying right this minute feeling ...honestly, I couldn't tell you. Relief is there but there's something else too and I don't know what it's called. Maybe there isn't a name for it because it's a mix of everything. After radio I'm arranging a break for all my family which will be a logistical nightmare lol. It's not a celebration, I never want to hear that word next to what we've gone through because I can't, just can't just now. But...it needs to marked in some way. A tentative line drawn under it with something good. So I'm going to focus on that and yes, for the first time ever I think I will treat myself to a spa day. Do you know where I can book a Clark gable look alike (yes, I like the oldies) with strong hands and a good sense of humour who can give me a shoulder rub while singing something country lol....? Okay, weepy bit over now, back to house tidying. Thanks Elaine, you're a star. Xxx

[Lainey66 in reply to Hidden]

You will have a few occassions like that. I do still have the odd wobble. Especially when I am on my own. Another feeling in the mix is lonliness. No matter how well meaning folk are, no matter how close to you they are, they have absolutely know idea of what you are going through whether it is psychologically, emotionally, physically etc. We have literally been fighting for our lives. There will still be times of exhaustion, feeling unwell - it takes a long time for chemo to leave your system, fear, and that feeling of lonliness. You are right to cry it out of your system. Then slowly you will rise above it. You will see that you are well again. I found that hard - how can I be near deaths door (I had some very scary set backs) one minute and fine the next. Your whole being - mental health, physical health, social and emotional has effectively been hit by a train. You will get there. We are strong, we have come this far. I will keep an eye out for that Clarke Gable look alike masseus and send him your way 😀😀. Take care my friend, hold your head high, stubbornly announce "I have got this, I have come out the other side!" You are going to be stronger than you ever were. Big hugs. Lainey xx

[Hidden]

Well that is good news.xx

[Hidden]

Great News 💐 Good Luck with your Radiotherapy. Then onward & upward! xx

[Jennymary]

Brilliant news for you, radiotherapy isn't too bad, and then enjoy a long happy healthy life xxxx

[Batey60]

Fab news so pleased for you.This was me 12mths ago.Good luck with radiotherapy but it's not so bad n iv been ok on the tamoxifen so far xx

[Kazzerp]

Fabulous news, so pleased to hear. X

[Debs1962]

That's great news for you x

[louise007]

Great news ...loopy is good who needs sanity through all this let's all embrace our loopy side ...😺 lol...take care

[Lorraineam]

Great news. Onwards and upwards now xx

[Hidden]

fantastic start to new year, brilliant to read this👍

[Louisejr]

That's really good news - I finished my radiotherapy at the end of November and found I was more emotional at the end of that. I think because all of the treatment from the operation onwards is so methodically well planned that you just get on with it without thinking too much about what has happened to you. I actually cried when I had my last treatment as I had met some lovely people both being treated and the staff doing the treatment - it was quite sad to say goodbye to them. Just take each day as it comes - all the very best Louise xxx

[mumkey]

Hi Glenshellach, great news re. results ☺ I was diagnosed 29th November, double mastectomy 15th December and got my biopsy results last Wednesday and lymph nodes clear so all good. But, like you, all happened v.quick. Just wanted to share that I too have been feeling very topsy turvy...it does feel like was so busy preparing for surgery and then concentrating on initial recovery that it hadn't really actually sunk in? Was shocked and almost on auto pilot throughout and does seem to be catching up with me now, weird. Also strange that, technically (fingers crossed) cancer-free now when just getting my head around fact that I have it?! Thank you anyway, reassuring to know others are feeling as mixed up as me! x

[Debster2016]

Hi Glenshellach thanks for sharing your good news! What a relief. Good luck with the radio, at this rate it will pas before you know it (hopefully). Wishing you as short and calm a journey back to 'normalcy' as possible xxx

[Hidden in reply to Debster2016]

Thanks Debster, yes, in five weeks time I will be finished my radio. I really don't know how I would have coped without the kindness of the ladies and gents on this site. I still feel....Don't know....strange emotionally. Still worried, but less so now I've got my results (as everyone said I would). Now I know the plan, I just have to trust the plan...know what I mean? I have to trust this is the right treatment for me, I suppose we are all in the same boat when it comes to that. Going to try to be positive. Basically I wish we could all wake up tomorrow and find we were dreaming xxx