Hya all, my head is in the shed I don't know what to think. But I can't think about anything other than my dad. I've got so many questions and I'll never know the answers.
My dad died Monday at home, he showed no obvious signs of being bad (I mean needing hospital treatment) he went to bed as normal Sunday night and woke me at 2:30 Monday morning struggling to catch his breath. I gave him a diazepam 5mg and 2.5mls of oramoph and turned his o2 from .5 to 1.5 within 10 mins his o2 had gone from 56 to 91 so I turned it down to .75 and he got back into bed and was a lot calmer. Usually if this had happened before and it had he wouldn't of calmed down and his o2 wouldn't of increased as rapidly as it did so I didn't think that he needed a hospital trip. At 3am he assured me he was ok so I went back to bed.
The door bell rang again and it was 3:40 am he wanted to take the bipap mask off so I helped him. He wasn't out of breath or anything just normal (as normal as possible) so I said good night and he replied.
But when I came downstairs at 8:30 he was on the bedroom floor unresponsive.
But there's a niggling doubt that he was still alive, he had no pulse and was cold my brother in law preformed cpr whilst I spoke on the phone to 999. The fire brigade arrived in what seemed like a lifetime but it wasn't and all I could hear was a machine shouting continue cpr.
Obviously after no signs of improving they stopped. One of them asked me if he had a lung removed I can't imagine how it felt doing cpr but that thought sends shivers.
The doctor from the local surgery was happy to sign the death certificate as copd cause of death. But the way he was lying on the floor begs to wonder how he got there he was opposite to the way he lies in bed and his head was propped up against the wall, on his side. No blood or head injuries to say he fell really strange.
I'm sorry for the long winded note, but nobody else understands. Has anyone else had a experience in this. Love and light