Think I'm going crazy

[Castleview]

Not a good day. Apparently his heart hasn't been in the right rythmm for a week. Today sedated him, put something down to check he didn't have a blood clot, before they shocked him to get it normal. Okay now, but sedation will take a few hours to leave his body, so on my way home. Normal time because I was in waiting room 1.5 hours. They'll lower the cuff again tomorrow, but they tried this morning and he couldn't tolerate it. Don't think he'll ever get off this b ward!

[Cat04]

That sounds like a cardioversion, very commonly used to correct arrhythmias if medicines don't work. Possibly a TOE too (ultrasound camera down the oesophagus to check for clots) He'll soon be out of the sedation for that.Don't lose faith, he is receiving all the treatment that he needs, it is worse for you because it all seems endless just now. Sending hugs xx

[Castleview in reply to Cat04]

Yes that's what they called it. Sorry, I just can't take much more

[Cat04 in reply to Castleview]

No apology needed. You must be physically, mentally & emotionally exhausted by this horrendous rollercoaster of a journey. And you are not the one resting in bed & receiving the ongoing care all of the time . I wonder whether it may be worth while having a chat with your GP to help you through this time xx

[Castleview in reply to Cat04]

I'll be okay when the shock wears off. I'll let my elder son spoil me on Sunday, lol

[Cat04 in reply to Castleview]

Yes, sons are good at that. Hoping to have messages from my two over the weekend, if they remember 🤣

[BeKind28-]

Hello

I have read your other reply saying you cannot take much more which is totally understandable you feel this way it must be like one step forward 3 steps back and even though it is your Husband going through this you are equally maybe in a different way going through it to no doubt feeling so powerless as well

As someone has said and rightly so don't lose faith easier said than done I know but your Husband has been on such a journey and yet he has proved so many times he can get up again and I have faith he will show us all he can again

While you are feeling you cannot take much more we will keep faith for you that this will come good again and he will eventually be home with you

Meantime as I say when we get to this stage feeling this way you recharge your batteries and let anyone that can or will look after you a bit your Husband has the Doctors and Nurses taking care of him so make sure even if you have to give it to yourself you give yourself some care to and look after yourself

You are the most devoted loving wife anyone could ask for and I imaging that reflects on what kind of Mother you are to so Happy Mothers Day for Sunday and let those that love you spoil you as you deserve it

Thank you for the update x

[weepip]

Im so sorry that you have had another day of knock backs and can understand how it becomes overwhelming for you and very hard when you are sitting waiting alone. Hopefully this will just be a temporary setback. I hope that your son does spoil you and you get some rest and next week brings some improvement xxx

[Purpled]

It’s another bump in the road but don’t lose faith much better to get everything whilst he is still in there and getting excellent care, plus it is far too cold to come out yet. He has already shown you how strong he is just hope for a better day tomorrow xx

[Handel]

Hi Castleview. I read your post about the air pipe falling out and was going to say that this happened to my sister's husband! But then I've just read your latest post and I can feel the worry and frustration.

Hubby is in the right place for all this to get sorted out so don't give up. This is just a little set back and the cardioversion should've done the trick. He's getting lots of rest there but you're not, bless you. It helps a bit to 'get it all out' on this forum. I hope when you see him tomorrow, he's much better.

You've made such good friends on this forum and we're all here for you. Keep us posted if you can.

Lots of love and hugs. Jan xxxx

[WeeHoolet]

So sorry to hear of this set-back. You must both be exhausted. Hubby is being well-cared for, so perhaps you should be a little more caring of yourself for now. Don't feel guilty about the time taken for that--you need to rest and cry and talk. Hubby will hopefully be back on his road to recovery very soon. Already, you have no doubt of his will to recover or, indeed, of his love for you, and it's heartwarming to know that you've shared this with us. Take strength from that, Castleview, and let your lad spoil you on Sunday, just as you'd spoil hubby at home. xx

[Rhinos67]

Aww, sending you both love x

[Dyllibobs]

Aw I'm so sorry hubby's had another set back. As mentioned on the other lovely replies he is in the best place & getting the best care. I hope you have an amazing Mothers day & get spoiled. Hopefully he'll be back on track soon x

[Pdbd1]

Just read your post. My heart goes out to you. As others have said, the medical team are taking care of your husband, please let your son take care of you. You have been dealing with so much stress, you are mentally and physically exhausted. I hope and pray today is a better today for you both. Thinking of you both

[Bingo88]

Oh dear. Sorry to hear this latest update. If his heart hasn't been right for a week. I would have thought they would have looked into this sooner. But I am sure they are doing their best. Just hope he gets back on the road to recovery 🙏. Brian

[Digger0]

Sorry he has had a bad day and I'm not surprised you are at the end of your tether! BUT, he is still on the mend and his body has been through a lot. i'm not surprised he could not tolerate the cuff being deflated, as he will still have all the anxiety from when his trashy fell out the other day. Also, patients on ICU have strange thoughts and memories due to all the meds they have been on, so he just needs time. Have a super mothers Day tomorrow and let your son treat you. Does the unit have a person that you can actually sit down and talk to about your feelings etc?