It's weird and im not even sure what day it is today ..oh yeah Tuesday.
Any one that has been following my post will know that for 4 years I have been getting chest pain and hot flushes and it has be put down to stress but with no help or way of understanding how to deal with it .
In September last year after a summer of struggling to breath and a dull ache in my chest and shoulder I go in to work and have a pain that made me feel like I was having a heart attack ..no stress at the time just phyically working hard.
I went and found my colleges and although in pain sweaty and very grey I sat it out (these guys are all first aiders, but I'd been getting pain for a while) it went of a bit and I made my way home .
I went to docs in the morning and was told I should have dialled 999 ! As I hadn't an I wasn't showing any real symptoms then she revered me to the rapid chest clinic who referred me for a ct scan , who phoned me 2 days after the appointment to tell me I had 2 severely blocked arteries and need to start aggressive medication treatment and wait for an angiogramme.poss 6 to 8 weeks .I waited over 14 weeks as the hospital was so busy and would still be waiting now if I didn't get sent to A and E because the angina attacks were happening at rest ,even while I was sleeping.
Off to A &E last Monday, I sat there all day waiting for a bed .they were manic and I felt bad that I was taking up their time ...eventually I got put on a f
Trolly and up to the Acute Admissions Unit to await a bed in Cardio for an angiogramme, I spent 3 days in AAU, 3days being nil by mouth until the evening as they couldn't find me a bed in cardio ...i watched and heard some very sad things including 2 very old ladies bing told they had very little time left to live. And dont even think about trying to sleep in such a ward ...it is the Piccadilly circus of the hospital and they do an amazing job.
Any way on Thursday which just happened to be my 61st birthday they found a bed in cardio for me , I was trollied of and given an ultrasound whilst there. Then I was transferred to the day ward for the angiogramme. I was very scared as I had taken my own mum Through this 2 years ago. But I thought it's ok I'm going to get 'fixed ' for my birthday .
The procedure was no problem at all and the good news is the ct scan was wrong! And I didn't have 2 severely blocked arteries I only had 30% blockage in the main LAD !!!
So after the angio team sang happy birthday i was sent home in a date.
Nothing was fixed ,nothing needed fixing !
I still get to take all the pills , I still have chest pains and sweats !
So back to my gp to give her the results and she decided it's anxiety she gives me breathing exercises and asked me to make an appointment to see a councillor... I feel such a fraud , but also let down by the ct scan that made me and my family feel I was very sick .
I still physically unwell ,nothing has changed except the diagnosis..its not surprising that I feel depressed and anxious,I am off course over the moon that my heart condition is not as bad as first thought but now I feel in limbo land ...