My dad had a heart attack 4months ago and on that night it happened me and my mum had to wait 4 hours to even find out what had happened to him before we could even get to the hospital ,he had been having a heart attack for those 4 hours and had paramedics with him but was still not taken to hospital. he then got taken to hospital and already coming out of surgery by the time we got there( he survived) but did die twice on the table . Called my bro who lives in a different country he was obviously upset and crying but something happened , he didn't even come home to see my dad and is still not here to see him , basically why am I feeling so much anger towards my brother when he could of come home but didn't . Has anyone else felt like this ? Am i a horrible person ?.