Agh, dunno why I am struggling SO much with everything just now!!
I have moved from a team, with whom I was happy with, and had an amazing relationship with my asthma nurse there, to a specialist centre, where I thought things may become more sorted/settled/reduce admissions etc.
My first appointment with my consultant there was good, however the following one and one last week wasn's as positive. Although last week wasn't too bad. He wants to do a planned admission to carry out a shed load of tests etc, which is fine, but he thinks that the biggest component of it is dysfunctional breathing (of at least there is a large component). Between 2 clinic appointments and in the space pf a month my FEV1 has dropped by more than 40%.
In the last few weeks I have had 2 very severe admissions (ITU, HDU, art lines, anaesthetics involvement, awful blood gasses and lots and lots of treatment) at my local hospital where my original cons is. He works closely with my current specialist centre, so it has been decided that dual care between the two of them is going to be the best route forwards - I am happy with this!! I feel as though I may actually be getting somewhere.
I have decided though, that now isnt the best time to do the planned admission. Original cons was talking about how there may potentially be an element of dysfunctional breathing, however the evidence that he has (and is going to share) can be nothing but asthma. Which is why I am not doing it just now as there may be a better route forwards.
But things seem to settle on one hand, before becoming unsettled on another ... I went to see my GP today, with whom I have a really good relationship with, She seems worried about the descision not to do it and doesn't seem to understand my reasoning ... I just couldnt articulate myself.
Agh, this has lead me to overthink everything again ... I just need it all to go away ...