I was in A&E tonight, I was blue lighted in and taken straight to resus, had wheezing all over my lungs but was able to maintain my oxygen sats with a lot of hard work. After about 5 nebulisers back to back I improved pretty quickly and they took me up to a ward to keep an eye on me.
Once i got to the ward my respiratory consultant came to see me, he listened to my chest and said it was completely clear and how strange that was, i didn't think it seemed too odd given the amount of medication I had had. He then said that I had rung an ambulance quite early considering I hadn't taken more than 20 puffs of my blue inhaler, and had only waited a couple of hours before ringing 999. This confused me a little. I thought that if i was honest with myself i had been a bit silly and had waited a little too long, and that the fact that i had been taken to resus suggested that i wasn't particularly healthy when i got in. I'm worried now that if i end up ill again i wont know what to do. I'm trying hard to be sensible and not leave it till i'm really exhausted and desperate before i ring an ambulance, but now i'm worried i'm being too hasty?
We spoke briefly about the possibility of home nebulisers, which i know are a bit controversial but i think might work for me, and i think at this point anything is worth a try as long as i'm sensible. But when he asked if he thought i might not have needed an ambulance if I had a home nebuliser and i said that i thought i might have improved at home (as nebulisers had been all that i needed this occasion) he then said 'so now your only agenda is to get a home nebuliser?' which i found really annoying, i don't know what the best thing to do is, all i know is that the current medication i'm on is not working. i have no agenda to get anything in particular, i need him to tell me what the plan is and the pros and cons of each option. He did then say he was joking, but that's not funny. All i want to do right now is be well enough to stay at uni. yes i'm frustrated, and annoyed and worried, but that doesn't mean i don't have asthma attacks too, yet he seems to treat me like all that there is to talk about is whether i'm coping at uni. I'm coping just fine at uni, its my lungs that are trying to stop me.
Not really sure what to do about this. I feel like if he thinks i'm really pushing for one particular treatment then he'll just give it to me, whether or not its the right thing to do!
He didn't want to admit me as there are 'too many bugs' at the hospital at the moment, but said that he thought i should definately be seen tomorrow, and possibly the day after too, (clearly not someone who struggles to afford bus fairs, has breathing difficulties when walking to and from the bus stop, and has a load of uni work to do - so hasn't even considered the impact this will have) so i'm hoping when i'm less tired and my chest is less tight then i might be able to get a bit of sense out of him! Can't tell if i was just being silly?
just needed a bit of a moan really! thanks for reading, Sophs