Well tomorrow is D-day! I have my bronchoscopy and lung wash procedure tomorrow morning, and the nerves have set in well and truely now!! I've had a bronchoscopy before but I reacted badly to the procedure and suffered internal bleeding from the biopsy sites. So I'm not looking forward to it
I know I have to be awake for the first part of it while they check my vocal cords for VCD and the camera has to go up my nose, which again I'm not looking forward to, as I have extremely small nasal cavities and I don't like people getting too close to my face.
The probelm is going to be when they start to put the camera down my throat as I really start to panic! Last time they hadn't waited long enough for the sedation to take full effect and I started to panic and kicked out hurting a nurse. Also I remember there being way to many people around the bed all hovering over me and I started to feel hemmed in which I dont like. Im really worried this will happen again and that I will have the same bad reaction to the procedure and the sedation. I'm just starting to feel better after the severe attack I had 3 weeks ago and am terrified of relapsing
I know I have to have the procedure done but it doesn't make me less nervous about it.
Sorry to rant on, but needed to say it out load (so to speak) and I don't want to worry my family anymore than they already are.
I will post again when I'm 'human' again after the procedure! Wish me luck guys xx