Maddie was in hospital 10 days ago and since then she hasnt been quite right. Needing 10 puffs of blue regularly.
Shes been breathless on and off and has choked a couple of times. She keeps pointing down into her throat and saying 'puffer mummy'! Shes coughed til shes vommited the usual white frothy mucous too.
The thing is, im scared! I know i should be an old hat at this. Maddie has been through some horrid times and since being on twice daily budesonide nebs, has shown a great improvement. Its just, shes now gone downhill again! Im not prepared and not quite expecting it! Id become used to her being 'controlled'! (for all 9 weeks of it!!) and now im back to her making me feel on egg shells.
The horrid thing is, I think she feels the same now!! Shes never known good health but I guess she has had a good 9 weeks so is now aware she feels poorly! I dont want this Asthma right now! Im fed up of it and want my little girl to enjoy the simple things in life.
For me, the choking is sooo scary too! Im scared for her to eat! She was sick on Sunday, just because she cried! Shes sick mucous if anything happens to her breathing other than normal day to day! and day to day is rare these days!
Sorry to off load. Just feeling low right now and would like 'normal'!!
mind you, at the sasme time i know how v v v v lucky I am and how there are alot worse off so for that I am v grateful indeed!