I'm 18 weeks pregnant with no 2 after post partum pyschosis with my son two and half years ago. I think I'm definitely going to take olanzapine afterwards, but unsure whether to breastfeed or not for fear of the effect breast feeding had on me before and toxicity for the baby.
I felt so guilty that it was such a disaster last time (which I think was one of the triggers), but I did not have much milk and it made me feel a bit high every time I tried to do it. My hormones were definitely all over the place, and my milk never came in properly. I never got that weepy low a few days after the birth when the milk came in, and just started getting higher.
So I want to at least give this baby the colostrum (but not sure if to start the olanzapine straight away or wait for a few days until I have done that). And then whether to breastfeed during the day and give the baby bottle at night, but don't want to risk toxicity in the baby. I am definitely going to give the baby a bottle of formula at night, so as to sleep.
My psychosis came on fully within about 7-14 days after the birth, I was really manic for a few days, then delusional. I was sectioned for a week in a general ward which was terrifying, and then 3 months in a MBU. And I had severe depression after, but luckily an antidepressant brought me back to normal. I have been fine since.