Hello! I'm a new mum to a 6 week old baby and the perinatal MH team are on the fence about giving me a PPP diagnosis.
Around two weeks after my son was born I became very anxious and upset and was adamant i had to give my son away as i couldn't care for him - i hate being alone with him and I feel trapped in my life. I have been so angry, shouting and screaming a lot and smashing my own very treasured belongings. I opened up to my HV who, alongside the perinatal MH team who had been working with me throughout my pregnancy, organised the intensive home treatment team to visit instead of hospital admission.
Their involvement ended two weeks ago and it did feel pretty useless but I feel myself getting worse again. I turned down medication as my husband was using having to manage our son at night against me and didn't want to be a worse burden to them both, and I don't have a full diagnosis yet because of my BPD diagnosis - the team are still debating if it's all hormonal, a longer term BPDZ episode or PPP, but I'm beginning to think it's the latter. I know something is very wrong but struggle to talk about it because I don't know what to do.
Anyway, has anyone been involved with IHTT then went on to stay in hospital, recover in the community or that? Just looking for some similar experiences as I feel very along.