GP visit.

[Poulson]

Dear Ladies and Gents.

I have been to see my GP today. I asked him whether I could be referred to Cardiff University, but he said its out of his catchment area. He said my case had been referred to the Clinical Directorate for a second opinion.

I want him to read my journal, it says in my medical records that not everything that is in my notes is true. There has been that much lying, conjecture and falsehoods said about me that I can't believe it.

I keep on looking at my baby photo's and getting comfort. I love and miss my children and granddaughter so much. My daughter has been turned against me by my mother. I have to live with that now.

I have completed my !000 words TMA for the Open University. I have a few more questions to answer and also a line graph. My studies are going very well.

I will keep you posted.

[Poulson]

I have got a mental health advocate involved in my case. I spoke to them on Friday and they said I was early at the top of the list.

I will keep you posted.

[Ellie_at_APP Partner]

Hi poulson

It’s good to hear your update. It’s good your course is going well.

I hope the second opinion psychiatrist referral works out. That’s good you have a mental health advocate to support you.

Take care

Ellie

[Pikorua Volunteer]

Look after yourself, Poulson.

If you need a second opinion with regards to Cardiff University,-there is no catchment area. I acted independently and was referred via my GP. When I say independently I acquired information via website and then informed my GP.

Best of luck with your intentions. May they contribute to fulfilment and happiness. x

[Poulson in reply to Pikorua]

Hi Pikorua.

I have been in touch with Cardiff University and they are going to send a letter to my GP to explain there is no catchment area. I spoke to my GP today and told him and he said, "oh really."

I have been reading all day. I have got 3 more books today. I have got two on narcissistic mothers, and one called, "It's not you, its what happened to you." It is very informative.

I have spoken to the Detective Sergeant and he says unfortunately they have not interviewed my cousin yet.

I will keep you posted as to how I get on.

[Pikorua Volunteer]

Hello Poulson,

it is all about being informative and exchange of knowledge amongst health professionals. Good luck!

[Poulson in reply to Pikorua]

Dear Pikorua.

I had a phone call from my GP yesterday saying that my prolactin levels were up again. I have got to go and see an endocrinologist. I have asked if they can either change my medication, or if I can come off it altogether. The Depakote is causing me side effects as well, such as weight gain and headaches.

I have been doing my Open University work again. I am doing a study on cigarette and alcohol use in the last 12 months amongst the population.

I will keep you posted.

[Poulson in reply to Pikorua]

Dear Pikorua.

I have been looking at my baby photo's today and am feeling positive. I disagree with the health authorities many diagnosis of my mental health. I have worked and looked after my children all my life. It is the men in my family and my toxic family who have caused me all my problems in my life. I have been made to feel guilty about the abuse I have suffered from men and family members as though I have done wrong.

I am sick to the back teeth of psychiatrists and psychologists.

The only person who has stood by me in all this is my new husband, and I love him to bits because of it. The health authority and my family have had me in and out of hospital and prison until I didn't know truth from reality.

I will give you a quote out of one of my books.

"Gaslighting can include not telling the whole truth, making generalizations, insisting on only one version of events, conveniently taking things out of context, or changing the facts about conversations you have had or omitting certain important things in order to discredit you and make sure that you feel crazy and look crazy to others. Relationships with these people will make you question your sanity.

The gaslighter is very effective in the use of isolation. If you try to use external help in the relationship to make sense of difficult situations, they will shoot this down and discredit these external influences. For instance, if you say you want to see a therapist for your problems, they will most likely tell you that the therapist is unqualified, or they will use that as an opportunity to validate your insanity.

That is what psychiatrists and my family have done with me all my life.

I will keep you posted.

[Jenny_at_APP Partner]

Hi Poulson

I’m glad you’re feeling positive today and can focus on the good relationship you have with your husband.

Take care.

Jenny

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I live in Cardiff, I haven't heard of prof Ian Jones, will have to look him up, sorry to hear your daughter has been turned against you, I think some people get pleasure from seeing others suffer unfortunately, that must be really hard and hope you can reconcile one day, x

[Poulson in reply to Hidden]

It was around my daughters 30th birthday that she turned against me. My mother wanted custody of her from the day she was born and has made my life a misery ever since. You would not believe the things she has done and said to me over the years. I have suffered sexual, financial, emotional psychological and narcissistic abuse all my life. I am writing a journal about my experiences. I intend having it published in the near future. I will let you know when it is published.

Best wishes XX