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[tppppppp]

Anyone with kids that deals with ideations? It's so hard to have those thoughts and to think of my boys without their father. I just can't do that to them.

[JAYnLA]

Not I, but I've seen several posts from people with kids and ideations. I hope they chime in soon.

[kenster1]

hi yeah me when I lost my son all I wanted to do was die.now I have two other kids I could never deny them fatherhood no matter what I go through.

[Nom-D-Ploom]

Don't think about the kids without a father. Please don't think that. Separate their needs from your needs.

Maybe concentrate on making their life with you precious. Take them for nature walks. Visit museums. If you cannot go outside without anxiety, spend an hour a week doing DIY projects. Write them a letter telling them how they have brought joy into your life. Mail it, so that they receive "real mail."

We feel better when we are needed. When we can find little fun things to do together. When we do a good job at work. If you do decide the road is too long, leave them healthy, strong, and confident that you cared.

The trick is to find a way to step out of our inertia. I haven't found that yet, but I am sure it is going to happen.

[jasmineclaire]

I’ve dealt with ideations since my pregnant. My baby is 7 now and I still suffer. It is hard. And most of the time if I’m in one of my slumps, knowing that my daughter wouldn’t have a “crazy” mom gives my ideations more justification. So stupid saying that right now when I’m not actually suicidal, but we know how our brains work. Crazy, right?

My bf’s father committed suicide almost a year ago, and being by his side thru all of that pain is so hard. In any case really, but then I feel so hypocritical, you know? It adds perspective though that’s for sure. It’s another dance in this life I suppose. One that is almost impossible to separate in my opinion; I haven’t been able to anyway. I try to just re-frame my thoughts. Still workin on it though and prob will be for a long time.

I future trip a little and think about my daughter as she grows older, how susceptible she might be to depression, and how I might be of support to her just from my own lived experience. My stories, battles, who knows maybe they’ll be helpful to her one day. I wouldn’t have the opportunity to give that to her if I off myself, ya know? Hence..re-framed thoughts. They go on n on and I’ve found it helpful. Just a thought a long one, but might be worth tryin.

[tppppppp in reply to jasmineclaire]

God bless you and your success for seeing 7 years of her life. Here's to seeing many more years.

[jasmineclaire in reply to tppppppp]

Thank you