I'm not asking for advice really... Just in need of a bt of a vent.
I'm 35 years old, suffered with anorexia and bulimia for about 20 years and been in recovery for about 1 year.
I'm doing so much better than I was in many ways. However, the weight gain has been really getting to me lately. I HATE IT! I honestly just cannot stand the weight gain and I wish it would melt away immediately.
I have been tackling these negative feelings with DBT skills that I have learnt (which has been brilliant! I highly recommend DBT to fellow sufferers. It has been a revelation) but this goes beyond the emotional side. I hate how it actually physically feels. I can't bear the thought of being touched. I want to climb out of my body.
Sorry, this post doesn't really flow and possibly doesn't make much sense, I just needed to get the thoughts out of my head. Thanks (and sorry) for reading!!