I have had a tough time lately. I've finally grout to a full stop both physically and mentally.
On top of working part time I'm pretty much full time caring for mum (87) and daughter who is disabled (16).
Added to that recently is the fact I was a victim of the TSB Fraud issue... My health has plummeted. The stress has been horrendous. Not sleeping hardly as my mind worked overtime. There were a number of curveballs thrown in for good measure, mum had surgery, daughters health took a bit of a nose dive.
I have felt like I've waded through quick setti ng cement . The bank issue has finally been resolved last week thanks to the financial ombudsman but the crying to sleep is still on going. I have alarms set for everything including my meds but still forgetting everything. Mum has short term memory and feel like I'm the same (or worse) I know all this stress is impacting on all of this. I feel so isolated, friends have moved on as I have no life outside of this treadmill. I'm physically grinding to a stop my 2.5hr shifts now take an extra hour to complete (contract cleaner) but don't get paid any more. I'm on apixaban 5mg twice a day and bisoprolol 1.25mg daily in a morning. I had one episode of af almost 12months ago, I've always had ectopic beats since about 18yr old. I have runs of flutters, though this has been more evident since the bank issue.
I don't know why I feel the way I do but hate that I was able to fix everyone's problems and now can't function to even do housework and remember blooming appointments. I used to be the person that everyone came to for help. No no one bothers I have a plethora of support workers but meetings with them just seem to point out my failings in everything.
I have only seen the consultant once in the 12months since I gained this extra health issue to my osteoarthritis, anxiety/ocd, ehlers-danlos syndrome along with multiple allergies and gastric issues that go hand in hand with EDS.
I've just turned 60 with no celebrations as I worked that day to earn something to live on while the bank were doing nothing to get my money back.
Today looking back on my life is something that depresses me looking forward scares me as I'm just not coping.
I've had no follow ups, no monitoring, is this normal of have I fallen through some cracks am I supposed to be seeing anyone? Gp? nurse?
Sorry this is long winded but I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing