Fear has come back again, I thought I was in control but....

[Luludean]

Hi Willhall, it is so comforting to hear someone else has had same dismissive reaction from their specialist. I normally just get on with my persistent AF, no one sympathises anyway. But I have plummeted into fear , a thing I had learnt to squash, I thought I could always rely on my Cardiologist for reassurance, but my questioning his use of Rivaraxaban has irritated him, it could be coincidental that the last time I saw him was on the NHS. I used to be able to indulge myself by seeing him once or twice a year and pay for his care. My money has totally run out so that luxury is over. Any way , now I keep imagining I have chest pains and can't sleep.grrrrrrrrr, it is so annoying but such a real feeling.. Not sure what to do my rather bored kids, who I don't often confide in , keep suggesting yoga, I am not An UUUHHHMMMM person.

[pattiannj]

Neither was I but I find it helps & you don’t have to uhmmm - ignore that

[Luludean in reply to pattiannj]

That is ok I then, have bounced back , and hoink it is all the nice replies!

[meadfoot]

Hi Luludean, it's very unnerving when we feel we have lost our rapport with our consultant or feel they are displeased with us because we have had cause to question them on some issue or other. We feel shaken because all we have relied on feels compromised whether it is or not in reality. So the fearfulness takes hold.

So you need a coping strategy and some support until you feel in control again, which you will. I have never identified well with yoga but I wish I could as I believe it to be an excellent tool. Meditation perhaps or how about asking your GP if there are any courses or support such as CBT or psychological support until you get back on track. I have an excellent relaxation tape which was made for me by a lovely health related psychologist. I was used to her voice from our one to one sessions and now listening to her tape in a quiet space feels as though she is in the room with me. Very calming.

I do hope you get back on track very soon. These consultants sometimes have poor people skills so think of his expertise only and if you feel your relationship is beyond repair arrange to see someone else. Best wishes.

[Luludean in reply to meadfoot]

Thank you mead foot for your reply.

Have been attacking the garden, that is my therapy for today.

Flu and pneumonia jab this afternoon .

[momist]

Hi Luludean . If you don't like the Ohm side of Yoga (which of course you could simply ignore) and fancy something slightly more active, why not give Tai Chi a try? A good Tai Chi teacher will eventually get you to chant Yin and Yang as you go through the form, but that would be several years down the line once you have learned the form and are trying to improve it's expression.

To be clear, Tai Chi is a martial art that starts with Chi Gong, a series of standing postures with some meditation aspects, followed by simple warm up exercises, and then a sequence of moving postures that strengthen all parts of the body and teach a passive response to any attack.

Don't knock it if you've never tried it.

[Luludean in reply to momist]

Thank you, I will look for one near where I live.

[Nanabrodie]

I saw my cardiologist yesterday after receiving an appointment and she didn't even know that I had had a second ablation. I asked her to look at my readings I have been taking on my Kardia as I am six weeks post ablation. although I know it is not AF I'm having when I do anything even an hours shopping my heart start a sort of fluttering which causes ectopics and makes my chest ache and a bit breathless. She had a look but didn't seem to have a clue. She was running an hour late and was talking very fast and had the door open for me to leave before I'd even finished talking. I didn't ask for this appointment it was a follow up following my first ablation back in April but she had notification of my second one done in August. What a waste of time.