I'm sitting here in the ER as I write here just the usual another afib attack just waiting to convert back. I can't help but to feel down everything I'm here you would think I'd be used to it by now since it comes and goes but it's like every time I feel my depression just gets worse and worse. Sorry I'm just venting. I can't help but to feel jealous of other people hearts is this a normal feeling? Question to those who have dealt with this for many years will my life ever feel the same?