I know I shouldn't be disappointed as there is worse things that could happen to me but I still had a little cry last night when the episode started at 8pm last night out of nowhere. Had my first episode in Dec 14 diagnosed in A&E. Am on Apixiban but nothing else, I was on bisoprolol but had to stop as my pulse was 38-40, was advised to use it when AF started. I took one tablet as soon as it started and although I stayed in AF for 13 hours it slowed the heartbeat but pulse still all over the place. Didn't know whether to go to hospital or not but just lay down on bed for rest of night but didn't sleep as I was so worried. I went to Dr this morning, AF was still there in the car on way but guess what, it wasn't there when I went in to see Dr!! I felt I coped well when Dr said I did the right thing in not going to hospital, not taking anymore Bisoprolol at the present time as it upsets my stomach also lowers my blood pressure and pulse too much. I feel weak and feel like I am waiting for next episode to start. I am sure I will get my confidence back again, hope so. Best wishes to everyone.