I woke up for the first time in my 41 years without Larry. Our partnership and love will go way beyond. As I sat by his side in the final hour, after they had removed all the machinery, I spoke to him about our wonderful life together and how I will see him one day again soon. I assured him I would be okay and that he better swing by the rainbow bridge to pick up all our past pets who have been waiting anxiously for one of us to come gather them up.
I weep some and then try to remember why I am suddenly alone with the cat.
Today I need to address the funeral expenses and take the clothes for his viewing. The hardest part will be the final goodbye as he is entombed.
Then, the sorting and donating all the unnecessary items, keeping a few memorabilia0
There will never be another as we were so close and loved each other very much. 41 years, going on 42 is a long time. I thought as the treatments were going so well, that he would be around much longer. But the oncologist said that in treating men, usually underlying health issues surface that will ultimately be the death of the person and not the cancer.
He was always hanging in there for me. He worried I would be alone and sad. I could tell in the final weeks that things were not well with all the pain he had where the cancer had metastasized to the lower spinal area and caused great pain no matter the medications. He is now at peace, and I am happy for him but sad I lost my buddy.
Again, thank you for all the messages. They have been comforting in the past 24 hours.
Truly yours,
John
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Larry was so lucky to have such an extraordinary person as you John, by his side. Try to always keep in mind everything you did for him. Grief, John, as much as you need and for as long you need to. It is your right to do so. Sending your way hugs full of healing vibrations.
John, in the short hours after Larry's departure, nevertheless you make time to share and inspire. May Larry's memory be for a blessing. And your post here too.
Sending my deepest condolences. It is obvious that you had a beautiful relationship and I pray the good memories and love carry you through this hard time.
You are lucky you had so much time together. Met the love of my life only 12 years ago and he is fighting the beast that’s re-emerged in the last couple years. So our days, given his age (almost 79), are limited. I dread the grief that you are now experiencing as one day it will be my turn. Cherish all your memories. ❤️
Just hold onto the moments tightly and when the time comes, be there at his side. The hardest part for me was watching as they slowly removed each item until the tube. They brought me a chair and I sat there holding his hand and assuring him I would be okay. The doctors said he heard me. When the moment was near I gave him permission to go and kissed him goodbye. It was then he left.
I am truly sorry for your loss of such a close loved one. It does sound like you had a wonderful and full life together a good memories. Hopefully once you have grieved enough to take a step outside of yourself, you will find joy in life and live it to its fullest!
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