Hello, this is Dena, JonLaco's wife and I just need to vent for a minute. My love, Jon, is in the hospital and has been there for 8 days today. He is currently experiencing more weakness in his legs (he is already in a wheel chair) and severe diaherrea (sp). Today he had a complete meltdown, crying and stating he doesn't want to live any more. When I arrived at the hospital we was in a very dark room, crying and I did not know what to do. A physical therapist came in and seemed to turn around Jon's frame of mind by getting him comfortable in bed with pillows, leg massages, and some very encouraging chatting. A little later another physical therapist came in and actually helped Jon into his wheel chair. He even had a little more strength in his arms and was able to lift himself up a little higher today than yesterday. I tried to celebrate this accomplishment. We spent about 40 minutes in the garden and then when we returned back to his room he had a diaherra episode and as the day went on he became very irritated with me. I keep asking him the same questions and this did not set well at all. He became very angry with me and told me to get the "f" out. I kept calm, gathered my things and left. My heart is completely broken and it makes me so sad to see the love of my life suffering so much. I did go back to the hospital this evening and stayed until 10:30pm. Has anyone else had these depressed dark feelings? I could use some encouragement here as well as knowing that other advanced prostate guys have melt downs like this as well. Not that I wish this upon anybody, but today was a very emotional, rough day.