When I look back into the past, I had a hard time maintaining social relationships or a constant friend circle. Only recently I came to realize that it was my brain's natural coping mechanism against RSD.
I shunned myself in the past whenever I feel that I might get avoided/rejected or uninvited in a social setting of my friends. My natural coping mechanism was to move on and look for another group of friends/social circle.
It was before I got diagnosed with ADHD, however now a similar crucial event is ongoing in my life.
Since I understand now more about ADHD brain's thought process/RSD, I keep on pushing myself this time to stay with these friends. However, they confronted me and told me what I feared the most. The late replies and no-texts which I used to overthink the reasons before....this very first time I got validation for my overthinking and they openly accepted the worst reasons I imagined.
Now I'm so confused how should i differentiate between the "imagined reality" and the "actual reality" from now on? I tried to change myself since the diagnosis by avoiding the usual RSD coping instinct of frequently changing social circles and it failed the very first time and it's HUGE.
So this incident is gonna gas light my current/future overthinking scenarios and it's reaching a tipping point that I don't understand the reality at all.
Help me out folks. And I'm tired of shunning myself and walking away which leads to social isolation , low confidence and self-esteem. I don't want to be back to square one.
How to overcome RSD when the scenarios are 1) Actually true and 2) Overthinking /Imagined ?
Thanks for hearing my rant