I was looking for a job and then I found a job

[Wylly]

...and heaven knows I am miserable now (The Smiths)

I was laid off in the end of January and have been struggling with motivation these last couple of months. I have all kinds of things that I want to do to better myself before I go back to work but I have been paralyzed.

I tell my therapist, that I am an equal opportunity avoider meaning that, unlike many ADDers, I am not attracted to more stimulating activities. I would much rather do a mundane thoughtless task whether formatting a PowerPoint of playing another hand of solitary on my computer then do the things I am good at...thinking through problems, designing solutions, and pitching them to clients.

Anyway, with very little effort of my own, it looks like I am going to be offered a position. Good people as far as I can assess, but I am full of doubt. Am I ready? I haven't strung a week of productive days in a row in years.

I don't know if I am looking for encouragement or sympathy or both. I know that I tend to do well in unfamiliar situations. Will that be enough for me to snap out of this?

[Lovinit]

If you don’t yet, i hope you can make the time for self care, exercising, bathing, fun time, etc. as for your job, i think you’ll do great. I think being in the right environment, the people you interact with the place and the job duties you have impact how you feel.

[Hidden]

If you haven’t been able to forge out a productive day on your own in years, it’s unlikely that you will do it now. I would say take the position offered and get the job. It’s way better than ruminating on what you should do and never do it. I’ve done a lot of that. It’s depressing.

[JSB_ADHD]

A new job with some structure might help. I've been in this exact situation. The trick is to manage the things that you are not good at. Good Luck!