Today I just broke, the pain I feel every second never going away, everyone around me can't grasp the concept of why life just stops over neck and back pain. I can't work nor do anything much around the house. My husband is barely getting hours at his job so we're looking for a second job for him with no luck. My marriage is hanging by a thread. I got in the car set on driving and making it, I ended up pulling over screaming I punched my steering wheel and broke blood vessels in both hands my fingers. I just had so much anger today not having control over pain with treatment and meds and no sleep, I can't take much more. There are times I wish I know longer existed.