I’m not okay but I don’t know what’s wrong.

[Huntersmommy2017]

Hi everyone, this is my first post.

I’m 16 with a beautiful baby. Before I had my son I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, I knew all the symptoms and signs. But now with so much going on in my life like. My mom and I are always arguing and it feels like everything’s my fault in her eyes ever since my little cane back home to live with us. My son is 4 months old and his dad is NOT in the picture but I’d always love him, but here lately I can’t stand him and wish he would just jump off a cliff. But I have a feeling he’s gonna try and take my son from me, but he’s never been around for him not only that but when I was 11 weeks pregnant ( he had a heart beat ) he had one of his friends ( a girl ) best me i don’t know why. But it still hurts and scares me every time I see that girl or him.

I have a boyfriend we having been together very long. I love him I can honestly say that. He loves me and my son and his family is very exempting. But one of my ( used to be best friend ) I guess she liked him and decided she was gonna go get 2 of my other “ friends “ and all go tell my boyfriend i cheated on him ( witch I’ll tell you I do not believe in, don’t wanna be with the person simply don’t be with them ) so all that had drama and was just a big mess. So now that we’re fine, I still feel like he doesn’t believe me that I didn’t chest and I’m scared to ask him because I feel like he’ll get really mad and wonder why I even asked...

so when I get home at night I take a warm bath ( for my back ) and I always end up being really sad and feeling all alone, because no one understands how I feel, sure I talk to people about how I feel, but I know they don’t know exactly how I feel so when they say they get it and they know how i feel I know they don’t. Because how can they know how i feel if I don’t even know how I feel.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hello there Huntersmommy2017

Welcome to our Community.

You have so much going on right now and I feel it would help if you could 'put them in separate boxes' so to speak, that way you can try to understand what's going on.

You said you had anxiety and depression before you gave birth and maybe this has triggered post natal depression, as baby is so young. Please go to your doctor and have a chat about it, that's the sensible thing first off.

Then decide if you need to speak with a solicitor or some legal aid about the baby's father and your concerns he may want custody, the sooner you do this the better.

Finally, ditch the girlfriends that have hurt you so much, you don't need them and decide if you want this current boyfriend and if so then you have to be open and honest. Relationships aren't built on deceit but trust and love.

Wishing you all the best

Chloe