Hello All,
I am also one among tinnitus sufferers along with hearing loss since long time (10+ years).
I have bilateral mixed hearing loss and I use hearing aid to manage my hearing
I got tinnitus in the beginning of the hearing loss in 2010 , I was also scared as usual like others but gradually I was habituated over the years .
But on 2020 post delivery of my first baby . After 10 days I started to feel strange symptoms in my head like a sever tinnitus in right ear and it was not usual as like existing one. I could not sleep or be in peaceful in the day over a week. My baby was sever collic baby and she was not sleeping at all and continuously crying all the time . So I sensed I might have got my tinnitus worse due to lack of sleep and stress I had that time.
But each day it was progressing like in each ear I had 3+ sounds so almost 6 to 7 sounds I can hear.
Those were 24*7 , hearing aid was not masking those and also I felt it is always in my brain like I am very close close to them . Those were very loud and disturbing. I was scared of them.
I met 3 ENTs within 3 months of time . None of them took it seriously said you just sleep well everything will be fine.
Along with these I felt 2 more weird symptoms like though I am sleeping from outside but I always felt in the morning that I didn't sleep and my mind was very active
My eyes were not refreshed in every morning
This made me even more Pathetic and helpless and I also got mild visual disturbances that if I close my eyes I can sense that flickering view , couldn't see moving lines. I strongly feel these are all interconnected.
Those sounds are not static , it's always dynamic I feel those have life I mean I feel that some activity is happening in the brain hence the sounds producing. In the same day they get changed to multiple patterns even if won't take any stress and all.
It's been 4+ years I am struggling I have met multiple neurologist , psychiatrist but none could figure what's happening
MRi of the Brain is normal that's the only relief I have. They just prescribe nerve relax medicines and ask me to ignore .I took minimal dose psychiatry medicine for 1+ year only for my sleep problem then stopped because doctors said you don't have any problem so withdraw medicines.
I struggle each day to overcome this.
My question is if it's tinnitus and I am already tinnitus receiver , why I couldn't habituated from last 4+ years ?
Why each day those get changed ? Why I feel those are continuously produces from neurons like some activity going on?
Why I won't feel sleepy ?
I have forgot what sleep it is ? Because my mind does make me sleepy no matter how much I try.
I would have ignored these symptoms atleast if I was sleeping in night forgetting them in the background for some hours but day and night I am struggling with these
Now I am not even scared of these sounds kinda feel habituated but that irritation will be always there .
I don't be normal like I don't feel sleepy ,I won't go into deep sleeps also.
Doctors always ignore me if I start explaining about sounds because they think easily that I have hearing loss hence it is Tinnitus .so I got a point that I can talk about these only to people who had experienced it . It's you people and get a support !
My only question for you people is does tinnitus feel this way too? Like you are very much close to those sounds and hearing aid doesn't mask? I can hear them even in traffic too . All will be punching at a time 2-3 are secondary level sound 2-3 are primary level sounds . 6 to 7 active sounds will be there and those are violent type of sounds not a dull ones and each day the pattern of the sounds changes . I do have beating ,very rhythamatic sound (not pulsatile) because it beats 3+ times per second like a some wind strongly moving inside the head not in particular place. It originates in different places in the head( this beating is more irritating like throbbing in the deep middle of the skull)I feel like I am in a different planet/ state though people are there around me very near.
I am confused whether it is psychological imbalance post delivery or due to hearing loss related tinnitus. But I strongly sense it's not Tinnitus .
I honestly need your answers here please.
I couldn't put my entire story here how my last 4+ years been but I have overcome somehow still doing . If your answers gives me little clarity like psychological or pure tinnitus then I will consult again further neurologist for help .I don't wanna live my life this way without any clarity
Apologies for my long write up.