Hello!

[Worldlymama]

I have never told anyone about my eating disorder that went on for 2 decades. It started in high school I became quiet anorexic never sickly but I did a lot of sports and ate very little. I weighed about 100 lbs. part of my problem was the issues I had with my mother. She was a control freak, a narcissist who wanted to me be a certain way. She use to force food on me. I’m college I didn’t have the aversion to food because my mom was not tHere. I became bulimic. From college till 33 I was always binging and purging or dieting. It wasn’t until I decided to have my first child that I knew I had to stop this self destructive behaviors. I have had 2 more children and no longer purge. I am still very weight conscious but I now eat everything. In some ways I feel like I replaced food with alcohol. I don’t know how to get away from these self destructive additions. Any insight? This is the first time I am even talking about this. Would love to hear all your stories!

[lillyofthevalley37]

Better to have a couple of drinks at the end of the day than being anorexic Well done you

[crazycrossstitcher]

Might be helpful to get some "professional" counselling to look into and talk about your issues - its great to get away from the food addiction - but replacing it with another addiction maybe isn't the answer - ABC have befrienders and they can chat to you about things - or go to your GP for a referral - but my experience is that it takes years to get help - or seek out a private counsellor - I found counselling helped me to resolve at least some of the "trigger" issues and to see how to break free and move on to a healthier way of dealing with life.

[SuZQ154]

You sound like me. I was bulimic six years before I heard the word. I was 13 when I first started, never got professional help until Iwas 35, and am now 62. I still struggle a little with food, and sometimes think I have replaced my disordered eating with my daily glass of wine

Christian counseling when I was 35 unrooted some of my triggers and pains and offered strategies to move forward from them. It was the beginning of a healthier me. I know in my heart I have taken the steps to become healthy! And know how to stay healthy physically, mentally, and spiritually. It is a balancing act which requires daily "training". Devotionals, exercise, good nutrition, reading books, socializing, relaxing, and working are all daily "habits" which I have to constantly practice!!

It sounds like you have worked on a healthier you! Keep practicing, my friend! WE are getting healthier!!