Binge Eating Disorder, need help, do I continue therapy?

[tattoogirl]

Hi Everyone

Im pretty new to this forum and have found alot of the posts very useful and helpful. I have a binge eating disorder and it has taken over my life, every single thought, every single thing. I can go a few days or even a week without binging but most times its always binging. Last year I lost 5 stone through weight training and healthy "diet" . I have now gained 2 stone again. Right now i just had a binge and i feel disgusting. I feel awful.

I have been attending therapy for Eating disorders which I pay privately for as the NHS is crap for people with binge eating disorder. I have been attending from November last year and although it has been helpful and im learning things im not putting them into pracitce. I am so gutted and disappointed in myself to words that I just cant describe. The hardest thing is my husband is paying for my treatment which is £200 a month. So I feel guilty because im not doing the best of what i believe i should be doing. Its hard to tell whether this is just my expectations or what it is but i expected to see alot more changes than i have made. I dont know what to do. No-one understands. I feel so sick right now from binging.

I need help but i just dont know what the right help is anymore. I also dont think anyone can help me, im starting to truly believe that. Anyone else feel this way? Any replies would be appreciated or help. Anyone also suffering with Binge Eating disorder. Im sick of hiding, im sick of eating, im sick of binging, i just dont want to be like this anyone.

Dont know if it matters but i also have borderline personality disorder/depression/anxiety

Thanks in advance

[gymmonster]

I'm not diagnosed with binge eating disorder because i purge after bingeing but I never restrict and binge throughout the day every day so I understand the struggle. Although a lot of it is emotional and food is used to distract me from emotional feelings and to fill an emptiness inside i think trying to stick to a routine is helpful. Never leaving more than 3 hours between eating gets your body used to not getting too hungry and your mind knows its not too long until you can eat again. Overcoming binge eating by Christopher Fairburn is a book recommended to me by my psychiatrist and its good with practical things that can help. The key is planning in the early stages of recovery until you can reliably listen to hunger cues xx

[Simplicity]

Hi, I agree with the advice given by gymmonster and just to add take one day at a time. you can't do anything about tomorrow because we're not there yet. You can only do what you can NOW, ask yourself what can you do NOW?

Make sure you eat 3 regular meals and 3 regular snacks, these don't have to be large in volume/calories but ensure you sit down to eat them and take at least 15 minutes for the snack 30 minutes for the meal.

don't try to tackle worries about your weight and your binge eating at the same time. Just try to concentrate on stopping the binge eating and your weight will eventually slow.

May I ask the 5 stone that you lost,did that result in you being a healthy weight i.e BMI 20 -25kg/m2 just asking because if you got below your set point weight and that's now your ideal weight, it will be impossible for you to maintain (setting yourself up to fail and continue the cycle). Also don't forget muscle weighs heavier so if your still training it could be that which has effected the number on the scales. How are you in your clothes? May I suggest you don't get back on the scales for a while?

Also, it may be likely that emotionally you may use food as a crutch - that's not your fault just a mechanism you use. continue with your therapy but be honest with your therapist and the group.

One last thing we all have bad days. Tomorrow is a new day, start again and do what you can. Stay positive