So I have kinda stopped eating... I have always been really insecure about my weight, but knew the damaging effects of not eating. But I was at this camp for a month and I didn't really like the food so I kinda just didn't eat a whole lot, and a bunch of people said that I had lost weight (like it was a good thing). I like the way that feels. I am now at a church conference thing for a few days and I have no money and can't pay for food so I haven't been eating here either... I feel really guilty when I eat food now. I didn't really eat today or yesterday. I am so hungry but I just can't. I just want to feel beautiful. And I feel like people will like me more if I lose weight.
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Hey. (Are you at soul survivor?)
You have the power to nip this in the bud. You are in the right place for that too - you've realised you're on a slippery slope and that is amazing, and you're surrounded by people who live and care about you this week and surrounded by a powerful God. Go and talk to a leader, share what's going on in your head, go use the ministry team, use the counselling rooms (if you're at SS that is). It's so so so not worth going down this track. God is bigger and has better plans for you than this.
I've just finished a super helpful course of therapy after struggling for 9 years. I'm 22 now and God has done incredible things in my recovery - when i let him. I just made a recovery scrapbook and put it on my blog (link below) - so here it is, 6 months of learning in therapy laid out for you.
clingingontohim.blogspot.co...
Read Psalm 139 xxx
Don't kid yourself - being thin doesn't make you move loveable - go to the leader of the church meeting - or someone whose leading the prayer - and get some help - tell them you've can't afford to pay for the food and I know they will help you. I found that when I became underweight my mind told me I didn't want to eat - things would be better if I lost some more - what rubbish - things were not better but much worse - and I couldn't do the sport and activities I used to love - get some help - and get it now - you are at a Christian camp where everyone will be supportive - so take the opportunity and ask for help.
Annielane,
Congratulations that you are open enough to seek guidance. Please talk to someone in your community. If you truly feel great about losing a few pounds, seek a healthy approach to further and explore your options. We all like to look in the mirror and feel good about ourselves!!! You sound like a beautiful person!!!
Best of Luck!