Time to admit defeat

[njam]

I G I V E U P

[fadedlizard]

Please don't, darling.

Am praying for you.

Sending lots of love and hugs,

Lizard.xxx

[njam in reply to fadedlizard]

I am too tired. It's too much. Gut says it's all positive ...head saying shut the f up!!! Heart bounces between the two like a yo yo.

I could quite easily never eat ever again. I took up smoking again as I figured that's the easiest of all my old ways to give up.

I want to close my eyes and open them to find myself on a sun lounger on a beautiful beach my children running around playing b in the sand with huge smiles on their faces and I just let out tge hugest sigh of relief. ..it was just all a bad dream.

Hmmmmm

thanks for your prayers

much appreciated

gods plan for me is unfolding too slowly. I've run out of energy. I probably need a chocolate éclair lol

[loppyloo61]

I echo Lizard"s reply, PLEASE don"t give up njam! I can totally identify how you are feeling but your children need you, their precious mum! I am struggling with Anorexia (carried baggage around for almost 40 yrs!). I am still attending Psychiatric Hosp "Specialised High-Risk Eating Disorder" Team!

It was only when I almost lost my own life to this cruel insidious illness in 2012, when I ended up in Intensive Care on Life Support Machine, as my Organ started to shut-down, that I have been fighting to live ever since! It is far from easy but I don"t want my grown-up children or lovely husband to loose me yet!

Keep fighting, don"t allow your Eating Disorder to win! You are worth so much more than that!!!!

In my thoughts and Prayers.

God bless you

Love

Lynn XXXXXX

[njam]

I kept going sort of...somehow. ..I am doing this for me primarily and it will benefit my children. n x

[doggie2]

Please please don't give up.

[njam in reply to doggie2]

Hmmmm I try. ..

[Hidden]

Nooooo.... HANG IN THERE -PLEASE. YOU CAN DO THIS..

[white748]

How are you now? Hope everything's ok my dear!

[njam in reply to white748]

I don't know!!!!

[njam in reply to white748]

I want my real life ana

[njam]

I am drained and utterly exhausted. I think it's time to walk away and back to old ways. This is too much for me. ..

[mark1962fullyrecovered]

Please don't give up. Easier said than done. I have been where you have. My anorexia almost killed me and at the end I begged to die. But here I am fully recovered. I would never have thought it possible

I am a counsellor and I help others to beat their ED. I have been working professionally in the field for 25 years. It makes such a difference to talk to someone who has been there themselves.

Recently I moved to Northumberland from Derbyshire. I offer counselling via Skpe and at the Therapy centre in Hexham.

If money is a problem then I offer discounts for those on low income, and if it is impossible for you to pay, then i will treat you free of charge.

Please try and talk to someone

Good luck and if you need to chat then I am here for you. Please contact me if you need my help

Take care

Mark

[njam]

I do not believe anyone understands it like I do. Only one person possibly. ..the person who got me so far before I realised actually there is only one way out ine way ir another. .. I think it surprised us both.