Good Morning Ladies - Thank you to all of you that replied to the above question, your advise has been greatly appreciated, and I have been able to come to a conclusion.
I think I am in a calmer place having decided that I do not want to know the answers and am therefore not going to ask the questions, especially "how long have I got left" I never wished to know when I was going to die before diagnosis so why should I want to know now. Especially as the answer will only be a guess based on statistics. I am going to put my trust in my medical team (even if one or two of them are a bit stand-offish!) and assume that everything recommended is for my best outcome. What will be will be, but I am going to give the treatment on offer my undivided attention and work hard to beat this invasion of my body whilst not googling anymore than is absolutely necessary☺Hope you all have a fantastic day and thank you once again.
Lyn x