What a wonderful experience It was to discover myself again over the past 7 weeks !!!!!!!
The first two weeks I discovered the poor old Hercu..... the sorry sammy,..... who pitied himself and blamed the world because I was suffering and mourning the loss of my 38 year long best friend. :mad:
The only friend I relied on to give me Guts and go and self confidence. Yes the same friend that was killing me slowly but surely.
Weeks 3 and 4 was the discovery of my weaknesses. The terrible idea to cope with life and the curve balls on my own. Now I realized that life is a reality and not a false euphoria of happiness where I can light a cigarette and every thing is OK......
I was confused, must I fight or must I flight ????? I was searching and looking for answers.......:confused:
And then during weeks 5 and 6 I found the correct places to search and discovered ME.....The smoke free Hercu who enjoy every breath of fresh air, every new taste, every new smell....I have deprived myself of this wonderful things for 38 years !!!!!! I wanted to create, build, do something again and live my life in full. No more heavy breathing and coughing myself awake at night
I found most of my answers on this forum, lots on the internet and much more in nature........
I was starting to notice the fresh morning breeze, the clouds in the sky.....feel the sun... it was such a good journey so far but I really don't want it from the beginning again... never ever !!
The best thing is that my energy levels only returned to normal 52% Wow.... still 48% coming and oh brother.... am I gonna use it ?? !!!!! 
