Day 5 has arrived. 2 uses of a no nicotine e-cig so far - both while drinking.
Last night I saw every hour. I went to bed at 1 and got up at 6.30. I feel constantly thirsty, even when I'm drinking.
I'm basically feeling sorry for myself. My smokers cough is getting worse not better. I feel groggy.
I know i'll get through it all if I persevere and will eventually feel "normal" again, I just want to moan and everytime I moan to anyone they just tell me I'm doing good. I don't want to be doing good. I want to smoke. Except I don't cause then I'll have failed. I want to but I wont. I don't actually want to not want to. I want to want to smoke but not smoke.
I'm sleep deprived.
I explained quitting smoking to my husband as a bit like dealing with idiots - you really really want to punch then (ie. smoke) but know you shouldn't. Doesn't stop you wanting to, somehow stops you doing it?
Sorry - just needed to get that out there!