Hey everybody! I do hope you r doing really really good!
I would like to say that I am still here on my 50th day of quit and 1263 cigs not smoked and that as many assert it does get easier but trickier too. So someone has to be alert the whole time.
I know I have been a lousy presence here and that I should be more involved but this happens for two reasons. First, I somehow want to completely forget about smoking and my quit. It is true that now I rarely wish for a cigarette, especially if nobody speaks about it. If I am reminded I quit, I instantly want one. Thus, I avoid visiting this forum.
Secong, time is merciless. I often have no energy at all writing anything about anything. Then i Just want to do some stuff I have to and then space out forever.
I want to also add how grateful I feel for every king word of yours, even though I havent been able to return this support to anyone of you.
Anyway, It is really amazing that I got till here without nicotine and I wish I ll never smoke again.
Some days Ago I dreamt I was smoking and afterwards I was so upset in my dream for having smoked that I woke up. That I took as a great sign, although i still do get serious cravings every now and then.
I came to understand that these cravings-thoughts I have about smoking again, come i guess from the lack of the belief I am NOT a f@&@& smoker anymore. Deep in my ming I am still a smoker. Isnt that crazy? Any ideas there?
Thank you all