Daily update: still here after the most "horrendous"week of my life! Still not feeling well but much better.
I don't get stressed here, actually felt I was with friends during the week, I I cannot thank you enough for that, all of you. One person in particular sent me a message (which I did not reply yet) that made me think twice, I need to keep going.
So for now...I am still here, it's a daily fight for me to even wake up nevermind get up and get going.
Still not smoking...and I will never say never again, I am going back to the very first days & hours of my quit, it's a daily batle, I am not smoking today and not tomorrow either...after that...I'll see how it goes - I do not have any cravings by the way, my batle is actually to remain calm & avoid stress.
I did have a slip (7 fags on monday/tuesday) as you saw on my previous post, but it is not fair to go back to day 1 where people are struggling with the physical dependency. I don't have any of that, this is not nicotine anymore, its a behaviour problem, which I need to address now at this stage of my quit.
My main problem is when I start listening to my "junkie brain" talking & that's what happened this week.
Somehow I have talked myself into having a cigarrete because One won't kill ya.
I am sure there will be some that won't agree with my decision, but I have decided that having a slip is not going to make me a smoker again, I shall get up & keep going, and hopefully never be there again...I am very proud of myself, this is in fact the first time that I had a slip/relapse at this time of the quit and managed to stop imediatly after.
Any other time, I would have gone back to smoking twice as much as before and it would take me years before I attempt quitting again.
Happy saturday to every one!!!