Back to it tomorrow

Well I did 108 days, I am quite proud of that really, however what I am not proud of is the fact I have been smoking since Boxing Day :/ ok so it's only 4 or 5 a day but its still smoking... The burning in my throat is back, I feel exhausted and my chest is tight, now it could be to the lergy going around but I prefer to go with the theory that boiling hot black smoke going into my lungs after over 100 days without it is not a good thing!

Patches are at the ready for tomorrow it's also the day I start my dryathlon ( any spare pennies would be get fully received :)) my apps are being reset as we speak.... I am a stubborn mule and I have to go to day 1 I want that full year smoke free......this last week if nothing else has reinforced my determination, a week out of 115 days isn't bad going really, I just need to not have one of these weeks again!

Look forward to meeting all the new year quitters tomorrow, bring on day 1 and happy new year to this lovely forum family...may it be a fresh smelling smoke free year for us all xxxxx

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  • If you can do 108 days then this post this time next year will be your Penthouse post :) Just keep plugging at it until it gives Donna. All the burning in your throat, tight chest and exhaustion is the body going back to what it was before the last quit after the body doing a repair job that's why it's important to get back on to a quit after a quit fail, they are also the symptoms that want to make us quit in the first place.

    Good luck you know where to post.

  • Thanks mate, if it means posting from bathrooms for the next year then that's what I will have to do:)

  • Hi Donna, so pleased you have a plan! Brilliant, I do remember back in February last year, had quit for 4 weeks, and then sat on the back doorstep, and smoked, why I don't know, but it did indeed make me understand, if I smoked or not, life would just carry on, but smoking did nothing apart from wanting another fag. ,!!! Had to break the habit,

    Best of luck Donna, you can do this, you can.

  • Good luck Donna - we will be cheering you into the penthouse this time next year! If there is an upside to your little detour back to Smokeyville though it's that description of what you feel like after only a few days back on only a few cigs. Don't know about anyone else but it's enough to put me right off; feeling like that EVERY day for as long as I can remember is the reason I stopped and the reason I'm staying stopped.

    Karen I can honestly it is utterly pointless and futile xx

  • Thanks Tracey and TG, I can do it I'm sure it's been a week of madness I'm not going to lose sight of what I have achieved, it will help me to stay focused x

  • I am so pleased to read your post. I think all relapses help us understand that fags actually don't give us anything, absolutely nothing and that life is life. I remember sucking the life out of a pack of cigs once and I was in tears cos they just wernt 'doing it ' for me, I had been quit for 3 months and had hit a low period, I felt fags were the answer but sitting there crying I realised they were not the crutch I had always felt they was so I threw them away and after a few days I felt a lift in my mood. Well done Donna xx

  • I am so pleased to read your post. I think all relapses help us understand that fags actually don't give us anything, absolutely nothing and that life is life. I remember sucking the life out of a pack of cigs once and I was in tears cos they just wernt 'doing it ' for me, I had been quit for 3 months and had hit a low period, I felt fags were the answer but sitting there crying I realised they were not the crutch I had always felt they was so I threw them away and after a few days I felt a lift in my mood. Well done Donna xx

    Thank you gerti what a lovely reply :) xx

    Karri, good luck for you tomorrow aswell :)

  • Great to see you back. Wishing you the very best of luck for tomorrow.

  • Grrrr I'm buggered if I can upload a normal size photo!

  • Never mind Donna, we'll make do with the pint-sized version for now. Dear wee poppet...there'll never be a better quitting aid than Betsey. You can't take her for lovely long walks if your chest is hurting and you can't breathe properly and you can't be blowing smoke at her can you? That would be horrid.

    So pleased and excited for you not to mention proud. It would have been so easy to say 'to hell with it' but you've regrouped and turned the stumble into a positive rather than a negative. I really believe that this is your year and that this time next year you will be relaxing in that Penthouse jacuzzi. All the very best to you dear Donna. :)

  • I reckon your 5 days smoking will seem like just a distant nightmare after a week. Good luck.

  • Well done for getting back with your quit - your going to do it; wishing you lots of luck!

  • So far so good it feels like the last week was a nightmare and I'm back on track :)

  • Fantastic Donna :)

    I think you're quite right to look at it that way. By starting again so quickly you've pulled the rug from under Nic's feet and he won't be able to get his grubby little claws into you again no matter how he tries.

  • Certainly not Sam! No way is he I had a flung but now it's over lol ;) how's your head now? Hope you have had lots of lovely food to soak up the alcohol from last night :) happy new year to you my lovely xxxxx

  • Thank you dearest Donna :D

    My head is somewhat better than it was. We went out for a late breakfast and had Eggs Benedict (which was lovely) and later I forced myself to go out for a run (which sweated out most of the remaining hangover thankfully...). Having said that, we're out for a while later so I will probably end up having a few hairs of dog (just for medicinal purposes I hasten to add :o).

    I've made an enormous chicken pie for later so that should soak up any excess I hope.

    Glad you've told Mr N where he can stuff himself by the way. ;)

  • Mmmmm Eggs Benedict, my favourite :) xx

  • I have every faith in myself TG the beauty is I am aware of my mistake, it wasn't a massive crave it was just stupidity, I have learnt from it and I know it will help me xx

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